Have you ever thought about yourself a little? Imagine who you are, why you do so many things, or who are your well-wishers! Most of us may say that we don't have time to think about these things, but we can share various emotional posts on Facebook or social media, but sometimes we don't see it in reality. Every person's life story is different. At the same age, someone is busy with their career, someone doesn't think about their career at all. Again, at the same age, someone gets married and happily runs their family, studies, and career. Our environment teaches us all these things. Those who don't have financial problems will not think much about their career. I think human life is a bit blurry, nothing is clear. Suddenly, our life paths change. Sometimes by our own will and sometimes without our knowledge.

My life is managed by Almighty Allah in a slightly unusual way. For this, I am grateful to Almighty Allah. At the age of 23, he has given me the opportunity to face the experiences of 50 years and the opportunity to face them, the environment has given me the opportunity. Since I was very young, I have never had the opportunity to tell anyone my desires except to Allah, that is why perhaps Allah Almighty has arranged everything for me. I take care of my studies, all expenses, and my parents as much as I can. I try to be good to everyone. In the midst of all this, I suddenly decided to get married, hoping in the Almighty God, to free myself from various kinds of sins. Later, I got married according to my own decision, even though I received an opportunity from many rich families, I did not accept it. I think that if I think higher than the standard of my family, I and my family will not have respect.

I may be able to reach their level in the future, but there will be no peace in my heart. That is why I got married seeing a family lower than ours. However, sometimes, due to the deception of Satan and the ego, various kinds of thoughts come to my mind. However, it is true that it is very difficult to get married while I am a student and meet all the expenses. However, my life is to live with trust in the Almighty God. Sometimes I feel helpless, and it seems that all the decisions in life seem wrong, at an age when my friends are only busy with studying, chatting and fulfilling their hobbies, at that age I am also looking at studying, earning money, and family. At the end of the day, when I think, I don't get money from anyone, but rather try to give, it gives me a different kind of peace in my heart.

That's why I consider my life a "blurred life", where there is no clarity of my hobbies and fulfillment of desires, there is only a strong desire and effort to keep others, family, wife, happy. The day everything comes together and the body becomes stressed, and I don't feel like going to the room with a tired body and sitting down to study, that's when my thoughts go to another direction. But all in all, I think that the Almighty Allah is keeping me much happier than others (Alhamdulillah). . I don't know how I will spend the days ahead, but I am trying to spend my present well with all my might. Almighty Allah has said, "When you get married, He increases your sustenance",, I have understood this reality myself since my marriage. After marriage, my expenses have increased, on the other hand, Allah has also increased my income source. That is why we should always walk the path of life being satisfied with the Lord, only then will success come.

Suddenly today I felt like sharing some of my innermost thoughts with you, that is why I started writing. It ends here like today, everyone pray for me, stay well and healthy. See you again with a new post of mine.